Bae Grylls @theauracle@queer.party

So I thought I'd spread the word about an anthology on bisexuality that I contributed a personal narrative to. It's called The Bi-ble. Published by the amazing Monstrous Regiment (an indie publishing house ran by two wonderful queer women out of Edinburgh) and it might be the most important book on bise #bisexual people you've never read.　
　
More info on it here: https://www.monstrous-regiment.com/shop/the-bible

Bonsoir. 👋🏿

I'm Joseph. You may remember me from such non-existent programming like:

📺 This Queer Black Guy Won't Shut Up About Things
📺 OMG You're Such A Dork

I'm once again expatriate (originally from the UK) having moved to the States for another long-term stint. Husband to an equally queer af and infinitely more awesome wife. Father to the most phenomenal girl in the world.

I'm very much a jack-of-all-trades/human Swiss Army knife so feel free to inquire.

#introduction

Maybe.

Perhaps.

It's not comfortable here, though.

*sighs*

And yet... I refuse to give up. There have been times where I have given up... and then gotten back up and kept going only to hit the wall again.

Maybe it's here in this empty, cold space that qualifies as home because I've been here more than any other place in the world.

Maybe this is my home.

It's that much harder to feel at ease with oneself when everyone acts like there's something wrong with you. Everyone is honest about you with everyone else except you.

And then you remember there's nothing you can do about it. The only one you're in control of is yourself and you can feel each of the reins slipping away from your grasp.

Public enemy number one and hardly anyone knows who I am.

Home.

If home isn't where I'm from, isn't anywhere I've been, and isn't where my heart is, then where is it?

How does one fit in when one is so abstract? How does one get accepted when there's always one prerequisite one doesn't manage to clear?

How does one ever feel whole when there's always something or someone taking a piece of you?

Where is home for a person like me?

The most elusive thing in the world is finding a reciprocal love that lasts. One that lasts. One that isn't fleeting. One that says "Hey. Don't tell yourself 'nothing gold can stay' because I'm here. I see what you see: your worth and you're worthy of what you've been seeking you're entire life."

One that says "You belong here. Rest easy."

Life is strange, mate.

Today, it all hit me at once. The loneliness, the exhaustion, the bitterness... sometimes, I just want to scream at everyone but I know that's not really going to do anything except exacerbate how low and lonely I feel but that's where I am. Sometimes, I feel like trying to make friends isn't worth it because people are so goddamn fake.

I have no home. 30 years of nomadic life and I still haven't found where I belong.

Speaking of video games, I've got an extra Steam key for the game Orwell: Keeping An Eye On You.

If you'd like it, let me know and it's yours. First come first served, obvs. #gaming

No but seriously, I have realised that if I can't take my gaming experience with me, I'll never have the time to play.

Thank God for the Switch and the Surface.

Hi, my name is Joseph and I'm addicted to buying video games.

Between Monster Hunter Generations Ultimate, Xenoblade Chronicles 2, and the hundreds of games I have yet to start and/or complete, I genuinely don't need any other in-depth games in my life.

I'm gamed out. I have ceased to game.

...aaaaand look at this Humble Bundle!

Hey. It's been a while but I've been active elsewhere. You should follow me on my alt over on PV.
https://playvicious.social/@theauracle/101036469387323132

On the other hand though, I don't feel like YouTube deserves my coins based purely on that fact. I turned off ad suggestions and everything else that YT/Google uses to suggest shit I don't need and want. Now look.

Goddamn it, man. And these fascist bastards have the unmitigated gall to suggest they're being censored when they're paying hand over fist to thrust their propaganda in everyone's face.

It's getting to the point where I may take out a YouTube Premium subscription just to stop seeing all of these goddamn conservative/alt-right ads.

Mate, when I'm watching sport highlights and John Oliver clips, I don't need to be told about Steven fucking Crowder and his cronies. Also, stop asking me if Trump is doing a good job. The entire fucking world can see he's not.

According to The Verge and Ars Technica, Google will charge OEMs up to $40 per phone to unbundle the GApps. https://arstechnica.com/gadgets/2018/10/google-to-charge-android-oems-as-much-as-40-per-phone-in-eu/

LOL at this Google/EU antitrust debacle.

Google found in violation and ultimately fined $5bn. Google also said it would comply going forward by unbundling the GApps package from OEM devices... but only for a fee because the apps generate ad revenue.