Storm @storm@queer.party

First toot, well here goes.

I realized I was bi recently, and I'm not young. No idea why it took so long: Not like I haven't been around lots of gay/bi/pan people before, and hell, I read some yaoi in high school, but well, it never did as much for me as anything involving women. But well, I noticed I was checking out the butts of pro wrestlers, and had a crush on a male friend, and was thinking about doing lewd things with people with penises a lot.

Hmmm. Anyone want to suggest comfy pajamas that I'll actually feel handsome in? Should be comfy for both me and anyone cuddling me.

OK, I know @starkatt has told me they'd probably hurt, but I kinda still want to wear these:

https://www.etsy.com/ca/listing/734827457/1-pair-clear-cz-cubic-zirconia-magnetic

and

https://www.etsy.com/ca/listing/612618256/tiny-4-mm-rhinestone-crystal-magnetic

I'm going to buy myself some nail polish this weekend.

While I'm at it, is there any other easy to use makeup you'd recommend for a amab individual trying to figure out if they just want to be a bit camp, are less male then previously thought, or other?

I've heard eyeliner can make your eyes really pretty, but based on the one time I wore it as goth makeup it was super hard to get off and I'm not sure if it would do much under my glasses anyway....

Also tempted to get a sexy nightgown. Going to a an event where wearing something like that seems like it would be more appropriate and letting my feminine side out might make a people more comfortable, so why not try it?

But based on buying cheap sexy lingerie online before, I have no idea how to find stuff that isn't made for someone who's approximately 4 foot 5 and 90 lb.

Just like, something silky that will be nice on my skin, and is thigh length in an average hight amab individual?

Frustrated. Was once stuck in a cold hotel room with a former partner, and I had not brought any pjs. She lent me her flannel night gown, which was floor length and super comfy. I'm wanting something like that for myself, but searching on Amazon gets me umpteen zillion things that aren't flannel or things that cost ridiculous amounts. trying more gentle Google searches gets me things that are either incredibly expensive or super frumpy (or super short).

Anyone have ideas?

New nail polish before I TA!

Can you guess which hand I did and which my partner did?

I think I might want a third coat.

Came out as bi to a coworker. Their response was "Eh, I think everyone is a little bi" also that I didn't have to come out to wear coloured nail polish as so many people are throwing norms to the wind these days.

I LOVE THIS CITY.

Me for 30 years: Makeup is dumb and it is stupid and oppressive how society makes women wear it, massive respect for anyone who presents as female without conforming to that. Major reason I've been interested in all my prior partner is lack of makeup.

Me today: NAIL POLISH IS THE BEST, MY HANDS LOOK SO COOL.

Also me: am I a hypocrite now?

Wearing my nails into work today. Which might also mean coming out to my lab group today

It would be really nice if I didn't have to open my email to see that I have a follow request

Coming out as bi, experimenting with my gender/presentation AND going into a poly relationship all at one might have been not a great idea?

#anxiety

(That said, two of those are intertwined. I wouldn't be experimenting with gender of it wasn't for support and encouragement from people my partner has introduced me to through their other relationship)

Ok, I'm getting used to the coloured nails, but now I noticed my toenails are SHINY

I keep discovering that I have bright red nails and and being pleasantly surprised and my partner just compared me to a puppy that keeps discovering its tail and chasing it.

IT IS HAPPENING.

(First time trying nail polish)

How does one tell if you are flirting? o.0

This isn't something I normally consider.

Flirting is not a thing I do.

Ok, confusing thing: I *really* look how my AMAB face looks when I'm wearing a sexy dress that makes me look femme.

What. Why is mixing these things oddly hot?

(No actually, suggestions or comments on if you've felt something like that welcome.)

Everyone is favouriting my question and not responding to it. o.0 What does that means?

Interesting. Using they feels just fine, but then hearing 'he' again unexpectedly felt wrong.

Don't think this is so much a 'they feels better' things as a 'switching pronouns quickly is not good' thing, but I need to collect more data

Just used they to refer to myself for the first time...it felt....fine? Not better then he, but def not worse?

My partner is not comfortable with me saying I want to look "slutty", though they are comfortable (and turned on by) me looking slutty.

Is there another term I could use for this?

(I would never use that term outside the bedroom of course)