💯% BꞮG DΣMӨП ΣПΣЯGY™ @jahtnamas@queer.party

nothing actually changed today other than aging a year (32 now), but there have been several minor updates since the last one!
- unlocked salmacian sex identity. this will evolve into “bigenital” if/when certain surgical criteria are met.
- unlocked transmasculine gender modality. perhaps “transneutral” would make more sense but i feel it implies an end goal that would not describe me. i see this as a “direction” i am going, rather than the target.

- unlocked genderqueer gender identity. still hard to describe outside of “kinda wanna be a boy sometimes?” other aspects are a bit incongruent.
- removed demigirl gender identity. i have now completely rebuked womanhood. “girl’s” clothes are still cute tho.
- removed she/her pronouns, replaced with sie/hir (pronounced “zee”/“hear”) pronouns, added slight preference for he/him pronouns, behind they/them pronouns.
- there’s probably more i forgor 💀

#noxp UPDATE: i've opened a followers-only hornyspace account at @disgustingdevil! it's mostly for me to post gross, horny thoughts about adult-age cartoon characters and genderfuckery since i'm not really allowed to circulate my own nudes/rudes.

give it a follow if you like! i will still screen requests but i'm giving a bit of leniency over the birdsite version of this account where you can follow from a public-facing account.

i mean i was under the impression nobody from the salmacian community discord could reach out to me because something _i_ did was preventing them. now afaik mod ryan absolutely could've messaged me after i left.

afaik just going by old posts on my own server from people who have left (and i've since unfriended) you can absolutely still copy their whole tripcode, but i do wonder if that's just an admin priv.

semi-related none of my discord security settings are preventing people from adding or messaging me so it seems to me that it's not that people are unable to reach out, it's that they're unwilling to

i run out of things to check very quickly anymore. it's weird and my brain hates it.

c-ptsd, ocd, autism, and bpd have far too many co-morbidities

pokémon go special research: take a snapshot of tornadus! :)
me: that’s the only one i don’t fucking have

"'[metal gear rising:] revengence is a musical.' YOU CAN'T JUST SAY SHIT LIKE THAT." -rev, 2022

i hope they don't redeem her, some people don't deserve redemption. let amity and the twins be estranged from her ass and be happy with dad. :)

ok technically odalia initially threatened divorce but i think alador's been pushed to the edge that he's 100% gonna file first

i really appreciate the representation of a family with both a greedy abusive mom and a dad who just wants to watch out for his kids even if it means divorcing his shitty wife

fuck odalia blight all my homies hate odalia blight

or i’m pouring this out ‘cause sean is urging me to go to sleep

probably not falling asleep tonight lmao

i opened this dr b like six hours ago and it is ¾s full still

maybe disappearing _is_ best, especially for me.

maybe i’m just saying everyone is afraid of me because it’s actually more like i’m the one that’s afraid of everybody else.

i feel like most people who have ever talked to me are actually afraid of me. so removing myself from these situations is ideal, actually.

just left like every discord server im in except two ‘cause i got (understandably) moderated on the clowder for talking about wanting to kill myself which triggered the episode i’m having to be worse

having untreated bpd is so fucking cool /s

i don't even care about the fucking vore fic but holy shit i don't want to write for ungrateful bitches. thanks for making the last 10 months a waste of time. i need to go to the fucking hospital.