elilla @elilla@queer.party

hello comrades!♡ I’m a Brazilian trans woman living in Germany 💕

Intend to post: selfies; trans issues; reviews of books I’m reading (mostly fantasy); comments on comic books; agitprop.

I like linux, nail polish, revolution, linguistics, made-up languages, makeup, antifa, calligraphy, #bujo, intersectional veganism &c.

My account about linguistics & academia is @melissaboiko

#introductions #introduction #germany #bochum #nrw #linguistics #transgender #vegan #selfies #mtf

1. Melissa (Greek μέλισσα) ‘honeybee’ ≅ general Tupian Jandira ‘honeybee’, name of my grandmother who raised me as a baby
2. ‘Mel’ is feminine (not neutral) in my language and it sounds almost like an inversion of the shortened form of my deadname.
3. Alphabetically one letter forward from deadname; symbolically a step forward.
4. But matches it in sonorous liquid consonants.

#transgender #mtf #name

From: « Les Amies de Place Blanche », Christer Strömholm.

This made me happy.

(source and more: https://www.digitaltransgenderarchive.net/catalog?f%5Bcollection_name_ssim%5D%5B%5D=Les+Amies+de+Place+Blanche+by+Christer+Str%C3%B6mholm&f%5Bsubject_geographic_ssim%5D%5B%5D=Paris)

#transgender #sapphic #wlw

push-up bra! I like what it does with a deep V cut.

had to dig up autumn clothes but hey it's autumn back home hohoho

#finefemmefriday

whoa @powderpaint is literally exactly what I needed rn

metal is great and all but I think I really need to make a playlist that's upbeat, queer, soft and healing for these days.

my ignorance of happy music stands in the way >.<

you go to the supermarket and people are selling cheese. cheese. like it was the most normal thing in the world. you run the cheese manufacturing process in your head. the worst dystopias, the goriest freddy kruger nightmares don't come close. the scale of it, the mass of unfathomable suffering boiling every day for no reason but sensorial gratification.

the slice of cheese remains stubbornly real, the ultimate trophy to the ideological power of normalisation.

yup, insomnia.

the hard part in being vegan is that sometimes you think of that gif of the cow out in the sun and grass for the first time in the year, her joyful prancing, her palpable glee.

then you think of the cows who'll never know that small joy, a whole life unable to even move, existing for the slaughter or serially raped and parted from their crying babies to make milk in constant suffering.

then you multiply that in your mind by 1.5 BILLION. and you can't sleep.

oh no I finished another trilogy what am I going to put on now 😔

sometimes I worry if my inability to do chores or sit quietly for any period of time without constant input for my brain is doing something bad to my attention or mental health. or it's a sign of it already being damaged

hallo namesakes

took 3×2h charges to do 01 single thigh lol.

I'm choosing to look at this as validation of my thiccness

folx, it works! probably 😌

I mean with laser you can never tell before a long wait. but my hairs are scorched carbon-black and coming out slowly, just like when I did laser in a clinic. I can shave already; probably 2~3 days after application is safe (but notice I have little facial hair left).

except for the face, I found the time and effort of applications to be bigger obstacles than the pain.

so many sysadmin positions expect you to handle windows and mac these days. I haven't touched that stuff in 19 years. wouldn't know a samba from a safari.

did I make a bad choice? no. it is the world that's wrong

http://chng.it/tJZCxqrz46

(guruth has the texture of a Black Speech word; Tolkien’s sound-aesthetic theory at work.)

nobody:

nobody in the planet:

me: The Moria-style Sindarin for the line "Speak Death and enter" in the song «Bury the Antlers with the Stag» (https://feminazgul.bandcamp.com/track/bury-the-antlers-with-the-stag#lyrics ) would be: Pedo gurth a minno.

For extra obscurity we can use the early Noldorin equivalent, "Pedo guruth a minno", which I think sounds more metal.

below, a pronunciation sample in clean voice and raspy growl.

#tolkien #feminazgul #conlang

if I get reasonably smooth legs+butt from this after 3~4mo it will be ~so~ worth the price and pain and hours of tedious application 🥰

might be a bit hard to self-zap properly on butt tho, even with my hypermobile shoulders 🤔

when I was 6 I was run over by a car, badly. it left me with a big scar on my right foot. I had kind of forgotten about it, but another leftover is 1 stitch that ended up never being removed. you can see it as a darker spot under the skin if you pay attention.

and ~girl~, does it hurt a lot when zapped with lasers ^^;;;

trans femmes are like, "I know a place" and then zap precisely the 1cm spot where like 1 lone terminal hair pops up sometimes

why am I describing the gf I want to be as instant coffee tho