elilla @elilla@queer.party

had to go out to work in the ~office~. like it's 2019 reënactment or s/t. and it's like 3500°C outside.

at least I get to play with this summer look a bit more

I think it’s time for a #reintroduction ^.^

hello comrades! 🙋‍♀️💖🍭 I’m a Brazilian trans woman living in Germany 💕 I often toot selfies and stuff about The Trans Experience, queerness, linguistics, fiction (mostly fantasy). I’m anarchist, vegan, polyamorous, and a mom.

Some things I like: nail polish, antifa, conlangs, linux, outfits, #bujo, EZNL, plushies, girls, sweets, Rojava, hormonal biohacking, orchids, queer-created fiction, revolution
#introduction

> Nobody believes me when I say that my long book is an attempt to create a world in which a form of language agreeable to my personal æsthetic might seem real. But it is true. An enquirer (among many) asked what the [Lord of the Rings] was all about, and whether it was an 'allegory'. And I said it was an effort to create a situation in which a common greeting would be « Elen síla lúmenn’ omentielmo », and that the phase long antedated the book. I never heard any more.

#Tolkien #LotR #conlang

1. Melissa (Greek μέλισσα) ‘honeybee’ ≅ general Tupian Jandira ‘honeybee’, name of my grandmother who raised me as a baby
2. ‘Mel’ is feminine (not neutral) in my language and it sounds almost like an inversion of the shortened form of my deadname.
3. Alphabetically one letter forward from deadname; symbolically a step forward.
4. But matches it in sonorous liquid consonants.

#transgender #mtf #name

From: « Les Amies de Place Blanche », Christer Strömholm.

This made me happy.

(source and more: https://www.digitaltransgenderarchive.net/catalog?f%5Bcollection_name_ssim%5D%5B%5D=Les+Amies+de+Place+Blanche+by+Christer+Str%C3%B6mholm&f%5Bsubject_geographic_ssim%5D%5B%5D=Paris)

#transgender #sapphic #wlw

Thank you so much for providing me with my cozy first home in the federation, @maffsie ! I enjoy the community at .⁠party🎉 a lot, it’s just about time for a girl to build her own lil nest. We’re going on an adventure 😌⁠

see y’all at @elilla (transmom.love) where I’ll be stealing all ur emojis lol x3

@IngaLovinde ok so we’re kinda not in a good moment atm but I asked gf anyway for her opinions, she’s share slides n stuff later:

she says that political scientist or not she’s not Chinese and doesn’t want to be seen as knowing the truth about Chinese people and their testimony comes first. she says that according to testimony number 1 problem is family pressure, and government or laws barely comes in the equation.

https://queer.party/@elilla/105408160131758842

Three. When forced to participate in these rotten systems, do your best to subvert them. Redirect resources. Tilt the balance. (But beware when fighting monsters.)

All change needed this buildup. Big flashy takeovers are harvest day, this is the seed and the tiling and the watering. This is work to be done, and we can do it right now, every bit is meaningful. No single one of us can save the world, but it more than adds up. It resonates.

If you do this work, you are the revolution.

Narrative work. Prefiguration. Entryism.

One. Tell people we can be better. A better world isn’t just possible, it’s tried & tested. Show examples. Spread ideas. Shift the discourse to what it can be. This toot is narrative work.

Two. Create better spaces right now. Within our constrained possibilities, of course; but at work, in the family, relationships, bring the values to reality, learn to deal with the contradictions, let the waves ripple.

my computer is about as hard to keep asleep as it is for me to fall asleep lol

it's a shame cause the new fem Lofrees look very, very much my hashtag brand. but they seem to be exactly the same as the 4 Seasons, in particular Cherry MX Blue, so it would be the same, just very pretty.

(meanwhile the current iterations of the Model Ms are the opposite of pretty)

so if I'm getting this correct, the Cherry MX Blue (in my kbd) is designed for tactile feedback and loud clicks, thank goodness, but it has less actuation force than the Model M? Is that why it feels flimsy?

and the Cherry Black is comparable in force but is not clicky?

is there really nothing else as typewriterlike as the Model M? I'll have to fork off the monies for another one, amn't I.

In my very last time I decided I would do it. If anybody saw me the rumours would run through the whole village. But it was the last trip.

I went mid-morning off-season. Took off my yukata trembling. Washed self in a corner, brought a lil towel – still have it, it's my shaving towel now – to hide boobs futilely if a guy came in.

Nobody came in.

I bathed in hot water by the sea, just me and the rough caress of the wind on my cold-sensitive, softened fem skin.