Most people are under the impression the ADHD is somehow a 'deficit of attention,' but it could equally and quite appropriately be framed as having higher than normal neurological requirements for stimuli.
When ADHD kids especially seem to bounce from subject to subject "mindlessly," what they're doing is not just randomly slopping through whatever without paying attention. They're running through lists of potentially stimulating subjects until they find one that suits their high requirements.
Smoke in the air makes me emotionally volatile. Like, just physically breathing it, independently of its tie to the global ecopolitical situation. During previous smoke events, back when you could just buy N95s, wearing one produced a noticeable improvement in my mood.
If you're in the smoke zone feeling cranky/depressed/anxious, consider that it might be doing this to you too. Clean your air as best you can and be gentle with yourself, yeah?
So I'm switching from Premiere to Final Cut Pro (because I'm tired of paying the ongoing Adobe Tax for software I don't use that much) and while FCPX has a lot that it does better than Premiere, it still absolutely sucks at doing motion keyframes. I guess if you want to do proper motion tweening you're supposed to buy Motion as an add-on. Ugh.
I should see what parking options are like at my doctors office. This is not something I should walk through.
Jesus the AQI just hit 200
I’ll probably just put it on Freecycle.
Hey Seattle friends, anyone want an HP Color LaserJet? It works okay but it's just taking up a lot of space and it's kind of a pain to deal with. I was going to donate it to a thrift shop, but Lifelong doesn't accept printers and Goodwill isn't accepting donations at all right now (at least not in Capitol Hill). It'll also come with some extra toner cartridges.
also I have my annual physical in, like, an hour, and I really don't want to go outside to get to it
Also not a fan of doctors seeing fresh cuts/scratches on my arms and legs and not accepting "I have cats" as an explanation.
furry discourse, kinks, disgust
Trying to police a fandom space by its kink categories, is, I'm sorry to tell you this, futile
No system can replace community vigilance, especially not one pinned on arbitrary traits like "does this character ever appear on all fours" or "how fat is fetish fat"
Esp when this stuff is all malleable, as fiction is
Yo seriously, this is a real actual post I'm making
If you see someone doing Racism and trying to couch it in linguistics in ANY WAY, please point me at them
I literally have the college education to prove them wrong and I am DESPERATE to prove to myself I didn't waste my time and money on this degree
We're good at spotting when people do transphobia with this, but racism is also something that people will try to defend with "language" and I'm not here to let that stand
yeah I think 5mg isn't enough to help my brain, but 10mg is too much for my body. Ugh.
Welll, I'm going to be seeing a new psychiatrist soon, so maybe we can find something that works for me.
Aaand now I’m crashing
ok I think even decaf espresso was a mistake, I'm feeling my blood pressure starting to spike
(and my blood pressure meter agrees, yikes 144/100)
I'm finally giving Adderall another shot, this time at the 5mg XR dose. I don't feel profoundly different than 10mg did last time around, on the other hand I had a craving for some coffee and then I was able to actually find the executive function to make a shot of decaf espresso, so that's something.
Also my blood pressure isn't too much higher than my current baseline, so hopefully this holds out.
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