cute and dangerous @austenitic@queer.party

if you would like to interact with me more and you are hornt/don't mind seeing horntness, i've been more active as @biofilm lately. i welcome follow requests <3

i don't hate myself
i hate
the shape
the form i was spilled into

hi everybody! i don't want a name yet, but i'm a lonely trans feminine nerd, hoping to connect with people and share support. i hope y'all are having a swell day and i'll try to get up to speed on the local culture. please tell me if i show bad manners!

second introductions! hi again, a little more about me: i think i'm probably a transwoman who is just terrified of transitioning, but i'm certain i don't belong in the man bucket. i'm in my 40s, live in the pnw (PDX), and am currently preoccupied with improving my mental health, changing my relationship to work, and getting married in november! (this toot now has an expiration date.)

get uncomfortable my relationship to sex and gender will never be normalized and that's ok!

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i'm finding it really interesting that i can slip into a motion and feel good or bad about it, not really knowing how it looks. sometimes i notice that i'm expressing a mood after i've started, and sometimes that has been new and kinda fem. amazing how much part of me was keeping track and uh

keeping the gait locked

i was talking a little bit ago about how i walk, and altering it consciously at work. sometimes my stride hit a sweet spot and felt effortless, which was great!

lately i've been noticing mood and gait, thinking about walking tired or angry or playful. when i need to get somewhere fast how do i ramp it up? it's a lot to consider, with a bunch of toot unfriendly nuance. i think i'm saying it here because it's a thing for me and i'm *sure* not only me.

i am sending some serious mixed gender signals tonight

they told me to act like a man so i learned to act

*singing* i like how tight jeans make my ass moooove

people akin to me.

it doesn't work very well if we're all sad at the same time, so fyi i'm feeling a lot less sad. if you've been holding back maybe this is ur time <3

lazy sunday more like hazy sunday

*never smokes weed, please steal this joke that has definitely been done before

i've been carrying the most important parts of myself around like a flaw and a burden. i don't know why it makes me cry harder to know that someone accepts those parts of me, but it does? like the sadness i felt at hiding gets to be real??

today is kind of hectic but i am getting that little kid joy from moving Four Boxes at Once! look at me wow!

i cannot get enough of shadows of trees on trees and shadows of clouds on clouds