Ugh, I'm still having a mixed episode and it's hitting that weird point where I start wishing I could do nothing but suck dick all day. I don't entirely know why I want that specifically, but it always happens when I'm manic or mixed. I get obsessed with cock, and start getting irritable when I don't get it. It's not even entirely a sexual thing, if that makes any sense, it's like comforting in a way? I don't know how to explain it.