Rape, PTSD, Bipolar 

Tonight is the two year anniversary of my assault, and I'm actually really glad I'm manic for it, because as shitty as I'm doing right now, it could've been worse. At least the mania takes the edge off.

Ah yes, doing laundry all night instead of sleeping for two days in a row, I'm the picture of mental health

still manic, still not sleeping, going a little crazy. I haven't been this horny in longer than I can remember.

broke: keep a mood journal
woke: post your breakdown on social media

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I find it interesting how my Mastodon timeline is basically just chronicling my mental breakdown right now

self-harm 

I started cutting again. Things were just getting to be too much again. I'm sure the mania isn't helping, but I wish I knew how to stop.

Still manic, still not sleeping. I'm doing a bit better though! My therapist says I'm making real progress.

YES, Charles II of Spain's ghost is my pet, YES he is real, YES he deserves to be in the #Dregday2021 chat

I should add that I couldn't have gone to sleep earlier than 2am, so I slept *maybe* three hours

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So this morning (like 5 o'clock) I woke up on my couch with no recollection of going to sleep, mania is fun~

still manic... not as irritable but still not sleeping

And with that, I feel very gay and wanna smooch a cute girl rn.

Ugh, manic again, and not the bouncy happy kind. I hate being bipolar sometimes. I haven't slept in days, everything is pissing me off, and I don't know what to do with all this energy. I feel like I'm going to explode.

Vent; Madoka spoiler 

If I was a magical girl I'm pretty sure I'd have turned into a witch by now because of my constant bouts with hopelessness.

Conflicted, my gf keeps misgendering one of my friends, and I'm not sure how to confront her about it

remember when libs pretended to care about the kid prisons

ptsd, rape 

A lot of the time I feel like I'm weak, fragile after Abe raped me. Not right now, right now I'm just "no, fuck that, I *survived*, I'm a badass" and it feels really good.

@RosieTheFilmCutie do you think god stays in heaven because he too lives in fear of what he created?

i think it's funnier to call cryptocurrency splits "schisms" rather than "forks"

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