Ugh, I'm still having a mixed episode and it's hitting that weird point where I start wishing I could do nothing but suck dick all day. I don't entirely know why I want that specifically, but it always happens when I'm manic or mixed. I get obsessed with cock, and start getting irritable when I don't get it. It's not even entirely a sexual thing, if that makes any sense, it's like comforting in a way? I don't know how to explain it.
My doctor changed my meds but my insurance refuses to cover the new ones, so now I'm unmedicated and #manic and it sucks
I'm so scared, I might be homeless in less than two weeks. Worse, my non-verbal son is losing the only home he's ever known. I don't know how to handle this, and I'm terrified. I'm at peace with losing my home, but I can't imagine how my son will survive if we can't find a new place and end up on the street.
The silver lining is that as trans kids are being able to come out earlier, we'll see less and less of that.
It's scary how common "woke leftist trans person who used to be a Nazi when they were still in the closet" is, though I understand why it's so common. Living in the closet does things to you. You grow idolizing people who get to live as your true gender, but that idolization can get twisted into jealousy. You start to hate people who get to live as your real gender, because why should they get to and you don't? That kind of jealousy leads to all sorts of toxic shit.
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