Self harm, internal struggles
I have two sides in me. One wants to stick up for myself & see me succeed. The other trained into me by parents & loved ones, that thinks I need to put them first, often at cost to me, & to punish myself should I start thinking of me instead of them
I know the me side is right, and the them/self harm side is wrong, & I can watch the battle play out with clarity, & I watch the harm side winning, but I can't seem to do anything about it. I've started cutting again...
So the U.S. Supreme Court has just decided to allow the administration's Military Trans ban to go forward... I have 18.5 years of service, one combat deployment to Iraq, and am in charge of 200 Soldiers in a Military Police combat support unit.. but I apparently may no longer be combat effective and now incapable of leading?
I had some opsec concerns about the app but i figure it's about time i just start participating in society the way i want to instead of always feeling like i should be hidden away so cis people's eyes don't have to fall on this horror
like, we have a place in our streets, in our communities, in our cities. i feel like it's time we took that place, and anyone who has a problem with it, THEY can go and hide away. i will no longer.
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