mh(-), plurality 

been feeling very bad about self lately, folks

in a sort of "plurality? no that is just you putting on different characters, it is fake and fake and fake and fake and fake so jot that down weirdo" kind of way

a fun thing about quarantine has been that @Dogwood and us have been increasingly unintelligible because of the gradual mutation of language that occurs in isolation

example:
we somehow got in the habit of pronouncing initial "c" as "ch". Chereal, Choffee, et chetera.

My chronically ill friend wants to know if there is such a thing as an aide/service where you can explain your medical history ONCE, and they'll coordinate explaining things / communicating with doctors and handling all of that. Particularly if they can accompany you to appointments.

Is this a thing? My friend simply does not have the capacity any longer to continue explaining their entire medical situation to doctors over and over, especially since doctors are so fucking ableist

vinesauce 

fuck Vinny and fuck people who IMMEDIATELY rushed to say "actually no this is fake"

I'd rather believe a victim and be proven wrong, than defend an accused abuser and be right

Today i started seeds for: cabbage carrot, lettuce onion, basil, cilantro, dill, oregano, parsley

I've got real garden space!!! This is so cool!!!

plurality, asking for advice 

fellow systems what do you do when you wake up and you're like "i do not know who i am, i do not know who is fronting right now"

super super super super sexual, nsfw, body wishes 

Sure would be nice if I had a donut asshole

csa, incest, grooming 

something that disturbs me about myself: when I think of my father, when I think of his sexual advances and grooming (we never engaged in any acts, but there was a lot of shit that was borderline), when I think of the times he told me about the dreams he had in which he was fucking me...I don't feel much of anything. I don't feel hurt, I don't feel scared or triggered. I don't get triggered by incest, it doesn't seem to HURT. And in a way, *that* hurts.

sophie labelle 

so fucking pissed off. good job, you fucking creep, you just did immeasurable harm to our community.

physical health(-), joint hypermobility + dislocation 

incredible to realize that I've been dislocating my shoulder for who the FUCK knows how long, and that what I thought was just "cracking my shoulder" like people crack their knuckles, was in fact me RELOCATING MY SHOULDER

if the doctor I'm seeing in March says I don't have EDS then I'll be hard-pressed to figure out what the FUCK I do have

Selfie, eye contact, joint dislocation 

I don't have an EDS diagnosis but I'll be damned if i don't expect to get one soon

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Selfie, eye contact, joint dislocation 

Comparison between my arms before fixing the dislocation: you can see that one arm is significantly longer than the other

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Selfie, eye contact, joint dislocation 

Before and after shots of me popping my shoulder back into place after a dislocation (i do this basically every day)

fedi/meta/personal, blocking, target harassment, racism 

(if this is about you, you've been told.)

been trying hard not to block people who boost stuff against blocking. cos like after hellweek being personally targeted by kiwifarms/gleasonator/poast/etc., whenever unasked-for replyppl go "but what about the ~abuuse~ of the ~unjust power~ of ~not talking to people~", it feels like, dunno, being stepped on, personally, with a twist of the boottip for good measure. but I think, ok this is not about me, they don't know what organised online harassment feels like, they don't know that they're minimising it, they're just misguided. I know some good people who are terribly wrong about free speech ideology. or so I thought. then one of the good people starts boosting support for the exact specific trio of terf/fash/channer alliance that came for me. boosting support _for_ these instances, _by_ an open racist.

and I start to wonder, how much of a red flag is really, opposition to defederation :freezePeach:

somebody I cared about is mutuals with n-word-using racists, would you know what they interact together about? :freezePeach:

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first time I saw Black people voicing how much of a terrible place the fediverse is, I thought huh where's all that stuff going on? I never see any of it! how come me, a white woman, never see any of the racism :thinking_hard: :thounking: oh.

protip for fellow whites, Black people talking about racism know what they're talking about and you don't. so listen to what they say on how to deal with it, and take a stand. anti-racist doesn't mean non-racist.

A group of friends and I have been trying to help this woman in New Orleans keep her home. If you can spare any $ I would super appreciate it. The only thing we have is each other. #mutualaid

gofundme.com/f/help-ilona-keep

me: all right, time for me to drink my coffee and watch something on youtube perhaps, and -

youtube: hey do you want a maned wolf getting tummy rubs

me: i...

me: i don't know why you think i want this

youtube: but you want this, right?

me: you are absolutely right, yes.

youtube.com/watch?v=5uDd1QdeOx

erotic fiction, ok to boost 

Hey all please enjoy this smut I wrote starring basically my only two straight OCs

archiveofourown.org/works/2877

To defeat fascism, we all HAVE to get organized. Contact a socialist organization. Get involved. There's no time to decide anymore. Put aside squabbles, get ready to work with people you might not like or wholly agree with, get out there and do whatever you can.

The fascists are training, mobilizing, base-building. We should be doing this, too. Tell everyone you know. Talk about it. Encourage people. We HAVE to. We have to do this and start talking to everyone we know.

Star Trek fan artists who draw alien characters as more overtly nonhuman than the makeup crews could ever manage? Y'all are a mitzvah beyond what i can express in words.

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